Thursday, December 3, 2009

21 weeks and counting Baby!

Most of you know that I have had a tear in my placenta that started hemmorraging very badly and that I have been on bedrest for months now. (Very rough with 4 kids.) We have been told that there was a large possibility that we wouldn't be able to get far enough along to actually bring home a baby before the baby would lose the blood suppy and pass away. Also that there was a very large danger of me internally bleeding to death due to the size and severity of my hemmorage. That has been the largest reason for such strict restrictions. My doctor has been amazed that the baby has never seemed to be effected by the tear. (He has had patients w/ tears much smaller than mine already have their baby pass away.) That was a few months ago. We have recently had some very sacred experiences that once again confirmed and added to some other sacred experiences regarding this pregnancy and baby before I was pregnant and during the early stages. My doctor has told me that a tear this big doesn't heal. May I add...doesn't heal without a miracle or the power of Heavenly Father. A few weeks ago my Bishop showed up at our house very late one evening. He said he felt impressed that I needed a blessing that day. In my powerful blessing he promised me that my baby and myself would heal fully and "be made whole." The power of his words at the time struck me to the core. How truly inspired he was. From the very next day on, I have felt an amazing change physically and emotionally...for the better. My months of intense pain left that day and have never returned. Not to say I don't still have rough days, but nothing like before. Today at our ultrasound the u/s tech couldn't even find a hint of a tear, let alone a large tear or hemmorage...no residual internal bleeding either ( which we were told wouldn't go away once progressed to the point we were.) Everything with the baby looks perfect! I just laid on the u/s table and cried. The tender mercies and blessings we have experienced are just beyond explanation for me. I love my Heavenly Father so deeply and feel once again so indebted to Him.